fegelah—Yiddish from little bird. Yiddish for little fag.
pansy fruitcake queer homo fag faggot
cocksucker fudgepacker queen sissy
fairy douche pussy deviant
I’ve been called worse!
a queenie fag before it was
explained that boys don’t do that!
that high school sting
if you wore green on Thursdays: you’re a fag
high school locker room taunting
one jock asked: have you sucked a better cock than mine?
I wish I could have answered
I hadn’t sucked his cock–yet
no parental intervention
they hoped it was a phase
their son’s effeminate behavior
parents read my 16-year-old’s diary
declaring my yearning for Lamont King
was sent to a therapist
cure me of my queerness
Stonewall liberated me!
part of in the 70’s revolution
gays poured out of closets into the streets
we thought it was safer to dress gay, act gay
pick up men out in the open
along with continued police harassment
constant threats of muggings and beatings
I am blossoming into an aging, dignified queen
expressing my womanly-maleness
in all its flamboyance
there is still a price to pay
a certain social ostracism
even within the gay community