Christopher Michael, gay, gay poetry, homosexual, lgbt, queer

Passing Time

Passing Time

To Peter Kostos:
Thank you for the darkness
Thank you for the light

At eventide, we walk arm and arm, you and I
Across the strand, as twilight descends as the
Stars oversprinkle the sky, fireflies blinking
In the deepening canopy of night. The incoming tide
Swirls round our feet white bubbling foam rushing
Round our toes. The ebb of sea erasing our footsteps,
Vanquishing our Presence, we were never there. The
Outgoing tide Wipes away our having been as the
Hourglass counts the hours of our lives, relentless
Cruel grains of sand dropping through the funnel counts
Our days and hours relentlessly counting.

I wished that I were young again, that we might travel
This road through time, you in your world, and I in mine.
You are the moon, rising now in beauty, I The setting sun,
Fulfilling now my journey. I wished that I were young again,
Full of lover’s Passion, filled with simple grace. Yet Death
Surrounds me, my boon and constant companion
Fair-weather friend.

Death, sups with us, he breaks our bread, we drink dry
His proffered chalice, the pungent Potion rife with toxic magic.
Death’s attenuated body, dressed in somber black, or blue
As ushers in a funeral parlor always do. His bony hands
With fingers waxen tapers; His cold cold hands leave burning
Traces upon The faces gently he touches. His luminous face
Is beautiful, his huge black and staring eyes Saucers rimming
With tears in that exquisite pale countenance. Icy lips proffer
His name, Death’s kiss, lingers on those he beckons
Upon their sweet lips.

He wraps us in his mantle, dazed as we are, drunk of his
Narcotic potion sipped from his silver chalice, he bids
Us, as with his hand raises us up above the ground. We
Pass through valleys verdant and lush, hushed in the
Dimming twilight spreading, o’re mountain peaks with
Crystalized jeweled caps shimmering from as Diana’s
Enchanted silvery light. Soaring we rise above the
Oceans’ might roars, quickly plunging deep beneath
Silvery lakes breaking their surface without a ripple.

At last weary and complete, he drops us to our beds,
You in yours and I in mine. We sleep til Morning’s light
Comes a’calling, waking from Morpheus’s drugged slumber,
Rested well, our body’s aches rejuvenated,
The mind’s cares erased.

We return to the living, you to your world, and I to mine.
You in the bloom of youth, your future spread before.
I to mine where Death’s presence lingers.
You go unto your world, in joy I pray; with sadness I to mine.
Yours a happy future, a well-trod path laid at your feet,
Mine an encroaching reminder my descent to hell is sweet.

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Christopher Michael, gay, gay poetry, homosexual, lgbt, queer

Absolution

Absolution

Be there God and deities or no gods a’tall,
Be there sin or simple our imperfect human nature,
Be there the devil and hell or all manner of evil
Within our nature, I know not. That it is so, I believe.

To be free, to be free within, is to forgive,
To find absolution without the aid of Jesus or Adonai,
To find the ability to make peace, with my past,
With my present, knowing I fall short,
Very short, of my destiny.

To be free, to live in the light, whatever that be
For each, is to truly evolve into absolution, not
With the aid of prayers and priests, but within.
Within and whatever that god we each cling to,
Even Doubting Thomases as I who do not believe a’tall.

To be free, to find absolution is a painful journey,
To relive each mortal sin or earthly error, to relive
And know that the past can no longer haunt me,
Though it tries its constant best.
Those we’ve harmed have forgiven us, or not,
Nor does it matter, only that we find absolution
Within and free ourselves.

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Christopher Michael, gay, gay poetry

In Memorium

He died young, an adolescent, never knowing
Intimacy, joyous rapture entwined in another man’s
Arms, pounding, thrusting hardness, bodies to
Ecstatic climax, for kisses on waking, caress
For sleep, I love you at dawn, I love you at
Twilight.

He never knew that love, nor any other,
He died young, died without intimacy, love shared by
Two young men, though they mourned him
Made memory over him, in time, memory faded.

The old man lives through the smiles of younger
Men, watches as they dance and glide across
The rugged terrain of intimate love, sexual prowess,
He silently weeps, le lacrime degli angeli,
His longing past tense, his time spent, asking
Was that intimacy those thousand grunting acts,
Clinging kisses, arms and thighs banging together
Without an I love you, parting, was that intimacy
Or a hope still renewed daily that though gone,
Love will find him, lost in deep reverie, love
Will find him?

The boy died young, the old man weeps for a joy
That boy will have never know, with teary eyes
Misting in the fading night, wonders did he either?

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Christopher Michael, gay, gay poetry, homosexual, lgbt, queer

In Memorium

In Memorium

He died young, an adolescent, never knowing
intimacy, joyous rapture entwined in another man’s
arms, pounding, thrusting hardness, bodies to
ecstatic climax, for kisses on waking, caress
for sleep, I love you at dawn, I love you at
twilight.
He never knew that love, nor any other, he died
young, died without intimacy, love shared by
two young men, though they mourned him
made memory over him, in time, memory faded.

The old man lives through the smiles of younger
men, watches as they dance and glide across
the rugged terrain of intimate love, sexual prowess,
he silently weeps, le lacrime degli angeli,
his longiing past tense, his time spent, asking
was that intimacy those thounsand gruntin acts,
clining kisses, arms and thighs banging together
without an i love you, parting, was that intimacy
or a hope still renewed daily that though gone,
love will find him, lost in deep reverie, love
will find him?

The boy died young, the old man weeps for a joy
that boy will have never know, with teary eyes
misting in the fading night, wonders did he either?

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Christopher Michael, drawings, gay, gay poetry, homosexual, lgbt, queer

Relentless

Relentless

Hands veined and wrinkled, fingers stiff at the
joints, burst blood vessels, wounds on the arms,
all else hidden from sight, in mind’s eye young,
supple and pliant as youth’s desires, free wild child,
70s hippies, drugs, dancing in the streets, LSD
turn on, tune in, drop out 1966, pimpled
adolescents in full youth’s bloom, sent to war,
returned in wood boxes: dear family, we
regret…
Too young to die, cut short by war’s unnecessary
bitter stroke, sit-ins and protests, drugged out youth
rebellion, flocking to San Francisco, free love
Woodstock, a new generation protests more
loudly than sound has heard before, a new
culture wobbling along for a decade til it crashed,
haircuts and suits, jobs and reality, bankers and stock
brokers, homes and kids, rampant sex and wild
times hidden behind respectability.

Time on parade, class of ’62, old is a state of mind,
a lie mirrors peeping back at the carnal wreckage,
gone the youth culture, the protests, the drugs,
the freedom to break out til conformity chained us,
dragged us back, as only conformity must.
We’re old, we sigh, chaffing on ‘60s memories,
class reunions, body old, and wrinkled, the
spirit of youth still burns in those eyes, teary eyes,
tears of sadness, paradise lost, youth spent,
wasted unlived.

Queens of our culture, not as mainstream brothers,
lived as the path directed to here, though the time
may not be distant when reconciliation makes whole
the parts of youth lost and lived, age and reality sets
upon this journey moving forward, upward, when wisdom
was cherished, not wisdom a vapid waste, children seek
their own measure, as age moves to its own rhythm,
we are alive as long as hands grasp hands,
lips kiss lips, light does not fade into eternal darkness,
pain is but a touchstone, bearable as life’s reminder.

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Christopher Michael, gay, gay poetry, homosexual, lgbt, queer

I Make Sad BEautiful

I Make Sad Beautiful

I make sad beautiful, old lace, delicate as child’s
breath, in cedar chests tucked fondly away, old lace
and withered roses, deep blood rust fragile as
newborn day, powdered sachet in hope chests
old lady souvenirs, dried flowers pressed between
ages of books, poems by Browning, sweet kisses
from grandmothers dry ancient lips.
I make sad beautiful, faded photographs, ancestors
unknown died in sepia-toned memoirs of decades
flown by, strange sad images of bygone mores.
I make sad beautiful, sounds made by kinder words,
lullabies crooned to sweet babies sleeping, words as
gentle as kittens, fleeting as the monarch
butterfly passes, hymns sung by angelic choirs,
grand operatic gestures and sounds lithe as
the beat of bird wings.
I make sad beautiful, Verdi’s operas and Mimi’s
death, tragic, lonely music soaring in night rigs,
beautiful flute notes sailing on a hot summer
breeze, deep lamenting requiems, and far off
fog horn cries.
I make sad beautiful, wondrous arias to end
your days, or being a life.
I make sad beautiful, but if you don’t like my
music, don’t listen; if you don’t like my songs,
don’t sing with me; if you don’t like my poems,
don’t read with me, poems flowing gentle tears,
tears of memory, la mamma morta m’hanno alla porta della stanza mia; moriva e mi salvava! my mother is dying, close to the door to my room
while dying, she saved me!
I make sad beautiful with tears of joy, beautiful
graceful as blown glass animals, delicate dolls
locked in curio cabinets, dark wood frames with
leaded glass panes, sad as glass menageries,
curious refrains from childhood, sad is beautiful when
kept out of the light, sad as dog-eared books,
butterflies pinned to velvet, sad as the hushed voices
of children stilled before their time fulfilled, sad as
the voices of children caught in pain, sad as adults
locked in private hells, sad is beautiful, only if sad is
brought out of darkness, then the eye can see beauty.

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Christopher Michael, gay, gay poetry, homosexual, lgbt, queer

Poetry Challenge

Looking for gay poets who publish on WordPress and are also on Facebook. I want to do a 5 day poetry challenge that crosses both social media outlets. That means “friending” on Facebook, then start the challenge. It isn’t difficult to share work from WP onto FB.

If you think that’s a cool idea, get back at me and lets make this thing happen,

xx

christopher

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